I can still see my childhood home in my dreams; many years have passed since it was destroyed by the fury of the invading forces during the WW II, with all the strength and the love for my country, I am still working so hard to put the dire days with all the memories of the sorrowful sights of the destruction behind, yet I still have nightmares of my country being devoured by flames, my home turned into a mountain of ashes, me trying to save my burning pianos, my beloved cat, Mikus, my mare Lolo and all the other animals friends. I still have nightmares of walking alone trying to find people, wake up during the night feeling pain from the injuries, accidental or the intentional ones by the invaders. Every day is still like a test of my strength, faith and power to control the model of my personal profile with all the various characteristics. I also dream of a stable secure life, sort of status qua without conflicts. After a very busy day I sit at my piano, work on my repertoire, and am filled with the desire to live with a dream, the memory of my happy childhood years, and not the nightmare of the past. I see the vision of my home, our Latvian flag swaying in the slight breeze, That is the spectrum of my rainbow that I keep walking on. For a blessed moment I feel being free, happy and have gained strength to continue my track. I had made a decision to be a servant to humanity not a sad survivor. I put all my effort to helping others in need to start thinking positive, to walk step by step toward a better tomorrow. Happiness comes from within ourselves with appreciation of what we have, not what we could have had, not what we lost but what we gained. I have gained the biggest gift of all, my life. I still remember the day, it was May 4, 1945. The church bells in Denmark were ringing from coast to coast, ( I was brought up by the Danish Red Cross, after I had escaped from the raging war in Latvia). I still remember the day when I ran to a meadow barefoot, I saved my shoes for school, looked at the blue sky and shouted: “I am free, free to continue to walk on my rainbow!”
